It's been a while since the last update. Were busy with my new job at new workplace.

I think, i shouldnt keep it as a secret anymore. Im currently working at Haagen Dazs.

Its's already been 1 month. & its already been 4 weeks since i started working at HD.

I met niceeer & betteeeer people at HD. eventhough its kinda slack over there, I've catch up alot of things within that 2-3weeks. :) (Y)

Alot of things to update actually, i'll just update what happened recently.

My computer maths examination will be on the 8th March, & Networking module examination will be on 10th March.

Im not really too worried abt computer maths, cause its easy to understand. But networking kinda hard for me to understand

& catch up. Cause got alot of notes you gotta read up. :( Oh welll, just wish the best of luck to myself.

Been studying with classmates every thursday now, 2nd warning letter have been send to me. :(

Thanks god its not a debarment letter. Fuhhhh!

Last saturday 23rd January, celebrated seri 20th birthday at Clarke Quay GMAX. :))

Went there with boyfriend, meet Fu er & the rest at the central. Head down to GMAX,

& Watch that birthday girl shout out loud. HAHAHA. HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO SERI ZAFIRAH. :)

& HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY TO AIDID HAIDIL (boyfriend lil' bro) :)

& had dinner at billy bombers. *cross finger* Yes, I cross finger, cos its not certified halal. Oh well.

Boyfriend got redemption letter from safra member card, free 3 course meal set to be redeem at billy bombers.

So we had fish & fries, nachos dip with cheese, and classic strawberry milkshakes. :)

Fish & fries not that really tasty to compare with fish & co. HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, niceee dinner with boyfriend. advance celebration of our friendship 1 year & 10 months. :)

Things between me & boyfriend, sometimes we're happy sometime we always argue.

No matter how much we've suffered, hurt, heartaches. Alhamdullilah, our relationship still holding on.

I will love you no matter how hard things turn out to be.

If enduring pain, braving shame, despising one's self for the sake of affection and accepting misery without question is the definition of love - then, I LOVE YOU

Taaaaaaa - daaaaaaa! That's the G-Shock watch i've bought for boyfriend. Picture above is the day we spent time together.

During his 21st birthday & our 1 year anniversary. :)

We're like so dammmn happpppy on that day like nobody caresss. Hope its will be a memorable one.

Recently, we had small arguments, that really bring me down. Seriously, its making me giving up.

But thanks for that video call we had, make me feeeel much better.

I was super duper stress with my family, my life plus r/s giving me more stress. that's why i feel like giving up.

Im sorrry for what i've done to youuu.

I miss my - msn - bestfriend, he hasnt been online for months. I wonder where is he. we used to shared our love story together. :(

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2009 ends tomorrow. What's your new year resolution? tag me at my tagboard :))

I am still thinking about my new year resolution. :((

"Im in need of motivation & encouragement to move on, i dont wanna stop half way of what i've already done,

i still wanna go to polytechnics to study, but sometime i feel i dont wanna pursue that dreams anymore. Haissssh. :( "

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Recently, I helped out with shirin video shoot for 2PM korean video competition thingy.

The cooolest thang now is, sebbie shooot using Canon EOS 500D with fish eye lens, prime lens. OMG!

PLUSS with the editing, turned out awesomeeeee. in the video u might not seeen the efffects.

But i've seen the raw foootages. (Y)

OMG!! I really eye-ing that 500D!!

Today is Hari Raya Haji(AidilAdha), went over to Bby's crib to celebrate nenek & mirul(that lil's boy in blue) birthday. They bought the cake from secret recipe, due to sore throat & flu i didnt really enjoy the cake, the cake damn delicious lahh, But i cant eat something sweeeet. :( But i so stubborn, still had lollipop before having the cake. HAHAHA. Today i kinda shy, Of course!. His mum invited me over to their place for the celebration, and bby aunt's & uncle's & in - laws came over to their place tooo. Omg!?! But i already met some of them lahh. I've met them at hospital previously, when nenek was admitted to hospital. Hmmmm, Bby's mum side, all her sibling, mostly their children is boy, Only few girls in their family. One of them is bby sister; andina herisha. -.- They been waiting for someone to give birth to a girl actually. HAHAHA. Kecooh!  & Aunty Marisa sent a comment at facebook.

Marisa Sanusi - Honestly speakin<nt bcos he's my nephew>..U lucky to meet Andin..He's a nice&helpful boy.U oso nice gerl..Aunty pray dat Insyallah u both cn overcome watever circumstances ahead u n last long:)

(Im not been boastful or been so proud, but im just wanna share my happy moment with the readers. Never in my life, anyone from his side, give us their blessing)

Thru out that 3 exe's of mine ++ those fling moments, no one ever said that to me. But Aunty Marisa was the first lady from bby side said those line to me. Hope, its last forever. <3 Its does give me some strength to move on. Thank you Aunty Marisa :)

Yesterday, is 26th November 2009. So its marked our 20months(1year & 8 months) together. :) I really hope that he will be the only guy i will be with. I dont wish to get heartbroken again. Its really pained. Dont wish the history to repeat itself again. No matter how un-romantic you are, no matter how clumsy you are, im just have one request, dont break my heart.     

This picture was taken last sunday, in 168 otw to send bby back to camp :( It's been a while since we last took photos together. Gotta take alot of photos sooon! Bby going to POP in abt 1 week & 2 days! & after few days its our 1 year anniversary + Baby 21st Birthday! Can wait to star gazing together. :)) 

Been busy with working & schooling to update my blog. & Finally there's someone tag my blog asked me to update. HAHAHA.  So far, this few week, I've pushing myself toooo hard. Not to interfere with the world. Been killing time in school & work. I've already move on, an a lil' change make me feel better, release me from depressed. I think its the best way for me, if its continue, sooon i will live with nothing. You know i need friends surround me, to make me happy, but its been month we were far apart, even there's update on gathering, you were the planner, no update were sent to me.

; You can only be a true friend when you learn that friends are people and people have faults.

We're human being, human being do make mistakes, till now i still wondering, what is the biggest mistake i've ever done to you, that our friendship were like this?! Or shud i just simply take it that it is our fate not to be a good friend now & forever. :/

Give it a thought, Have you ever thought, that you didnt realised you've hurt your friends feeling unknowingly, but she/he is still there for you. She/he always think of you, she/he always care for your feeling, and she/he didnt even wanna hurt your feeling at all, just bcos she/he treasure the friendship. But when come to her/his mistake, you took it as if the whole world gonna end.

Bby<3 going to POP soooon, on this 9th December. & on the 16th December, Bby turning 21st & our 1 year anniversary :))  On the day bby POP i cant accompany him cause im schoooling, the last week of school. And they only given 2 ticket max to attend on that day. so most probably i cant even get to go in. :(

I've already planned my budget & what gift to give to my bf. Since its our 1 year anniversary, i insisted him to do something special for us. AHAHAH. Im so bad right. LOL. I've been working the whole 2 week just to get that amount of salary. -.-

Kinda tired lahh, been shifting from schoool to work. From early 6am till late midnight. :( So super duper tired that, i'll always got angry. :( But in schoool, i've my happy pills! :DDD Thanks to Bainah, Alfan fanz, Hoooda, LollyDolly, Farid claus, Dann Jalapino and some other of IT1A. Been cracking jokes and chilling at J.CO Donut with me. Im feeling better when im in schoool. cos there will be 1001 jokes they have.

Once i've got my pay, gonnna shops for clothes now! been suffering for months! Its time for me to distressssed! HUHU. & Sorry Janny for been cancelling our chilling out session, Been busy with works! Soooon we go interview jobs together k. <3<3<3

I shouldnt have come. Really its affected me alot. No matter how big or small it is. Find it nonsense, even that someone talk to me is declared nonsense too. I feel so unfair. I feel so cheated, I feel that not even a token of appreaciation was given to me. I feeel that it totally lame to have this kind of session. I bet, nothing gonna change, Bitch! How many times you gonna repeat that 'fucked' words, nothing gonna change, but i bet & i know that there's always a karma will be waiting for ya! Just wait for the day alright. Dont expect me to smile or be nicee to you. Cos you big time sucker! I will only talk to people who respect other people.

Ashamed, Cause as a muslim, you have to respect people who is the same religion as you. But.. haiya, like what alot people been saying, the world gonna end. Im still feeling so pissed off. Grrrrr

Nowadays I find that everyone is doing their own things now, like my previous post im going to M.I.A from those people right. It seeem they are like so happy with thier life, i think they dont need me already. its okay, anyway when was the last time we updates each other. eeerr. last 4 months ago. Hmmm. FUCKED ALL THIS FRIENDSHIP! i'd enough already. Im fucking serious, i've been too kind & been too patience with these peoples, that they took everything for granted and leave me with nothing. Like ___ right. Dont asked me why im always with my boyfriend. cos i can only meet him like what, less then 4 hours each weekends. Friends?! Hmmmm. I only have fews friends with me now. I dont mind, cos soooon or later, i can adapt with my life without youu all. I still remember my boyfriend did said in a harsh way to me, cos im like tooo 'JIWE' with friends, he said if i die later on, are they the one buried you? are they here for you when you down? Now i get the answer.

Once bitten, twice shy. Thanks to that old bestfriend of mine, who make me fear to have a friends; very close friends. But so far, me & Janny; 7 years still counting. Our friendship is still growing stronger, we think alike, we know what we wants, we got the same taste. I hope you dont disappoint me like some of my good friends use to be.

All these while i could'nt dare to tell my parents abt my relationship. Been keeping that secret for toooo long. Alhamdullilah, everything is over now. As in, they accept my current boyfriend right now :) No more secret already. fuhhhh! 1 problem is solve. wooohooo.

This coming saturday will be celebrating my parents birthday & we (me & boyfriend) going to treat them to dinner, together with my mum friends cos they cant wait to meet my boyfriend -.-

At the same time celebrate our 11th month anniversary. :)) sooon turning 1 year! Cant wait. Oh recently we watched astro boy. Damned cute!

Finding solution.

weekly schedule. Urgh.