Been busy with working & schooling to update my blog. & Finally there's someone tag my blog asked me to update. HAHAHA.  So far, this few week, I've pushing myself toooo hard. Not to interfere with the world. Been killing time in school & work. I've already move on, an a lil' change make me feel better, release me from depressed. I think its the best way for me, if its continue, sooon i will live with nothing. You know i need friends surround me, to make me happy, but its been month we were far apart, even there's update on gathering, you were the planner, no update were sent to me.

; You can only be a true friend when you learn that friends are people and people have faults.

We're human being, human being do make mistakes, till now i still wondering, what is the biggest mistake i've ever done to you, that our friendship were like this?! Or shud i just simply take it that it is our fate not to be a good friend now & forever. :/

Give it a thought, Have you ever thought, that you didnt realised you've hurt your friends feeling unknowingly, but she/he is still there for you. She/he always think of you, she/he always care for your feeling, and she/he didnt even wanna hurt your feeling at all, just bcos she/he treasure the friendship. But when come to her/his mistake, you took it as if the whole world gonna end.

Bby<3 going to POP soooon, on this 9th December. & on the 16th December, Bby turning 21st & our 1 year anniversary :))  On the day bby POP i cant accompany him cause im schoooling, the last week of school. And they only given 2 ticket max to attend on that day. so most probably i cant even get to go in. :(

I've already planned my budget & what gift to give to my bf. Since its our 1 year anniversary, i insisted him to do something special for us. AHAHAH. Im so bad right. LOL. I've been working the whole 2 week just to get that amount of salary. -.-

Kinda tired lahh, been shifting from schoool to work. From early 6am till late midnight. :( So super duper tired that, i'll always got angry. :( But in schoool, i've my happy pills! :DDD Thanks to Bainah, Alfan fanz, Hoooda, LollyDolly, Farid claus, Dann Jalapino and some other of IT1A. Been cracking jokes and chilling at J.CO Donut with me. Im feeling better when im in schoool. cos there will be 1001 jokes they have.

Once i've got my pay, gonnna shops for clothes now! been suffering for months! Its time for me to distressssed! HUHU. & Sorry Janny for been cancelling our chilling out session, Been busy with works! Soooon we go interview jobs together k. <3<3<3

I shouldnt have come. Really its affected me alot. No matter how big or small it is. Find it nonsense, even that someone talk to me is declared nonsense too. I feel so unfair. I feel so cheated, I feel that not even a token of appreaciation was given to me. I feeel that it totally lame to have this kind of session. I bet, nothing gonna change, Bitch! How many times you gonna repeat that 'fucked' words, nothing gonna change, but i bet & i know that there's always a karma will be waiting for ya! Just wait for the day alright. Dont expect me to smile or be nicee to you. Cos you big time sucker! I will only talk to people who respect other people.

Ashamed, Cause as a muslim, you have to respect people who is the same religion as you. But.. haiya, like what alot people been saying, the world gonna end. Im still feeling so pissed off. Grrrrr

Nowadays I find that everyone is doing their own things now, like my previous post im going to M.I.A from those people right. It seeem they are like so happy with thier life, i think they dont need me already. its okay, anyway when was the last time we updates each other. eeerr. last 4 months ago. Hmmm. FUCKED ALL THIS FRIENDSHIP! i'd enough already. Im fucking serious, i've been too kind & been too patience with these peoples, that they took everything for granted and leave me with nothing. Like ___ right. Dont asked me why im always with my boyfriend. cos i can only meet him like what, less then 4 hours each weekends. Friends?! Hmmmm. I only have fews friends with me now. I dont mind, cos soooon or later, i can adapt with my life without youu all. I still remember my boyfriend did said in a harsh way to me, cos im like tooo 'JIWE' with friends, he said if i die later on, are they the one buried you? are they here for you when you down? Now i get the answer.

Once bitten, twice shy. Thanks to that old bestfriend of mine, who make me fear to have a friends; very close friends. But so far, me & Janny; 7 years still counting. Our friendship is still growing stronger, we think alike, we know what we wants, we got the same taste. I hope you dont disappoint me like some of my good friends use to be.

All these while i could'nt dare to tell my parents abt my relationship. Been keeping that secret for toooo long. Alhamdullilah, everything is over now. As in, they accept my current boyfriend right now :) No more secret already. fuhhhh! 1 problem is solve. wooohooo.

This coming saturday will be celebrating my parents birthday & we (me & boyfriend) going to treat them to dinner, together with my mum friends cos they cant wait to meet my boyfriend -.-

At the same time celebrate our 11th month anniversary. :)) sooon turning 1 year! Cant wait. Oh recently we watched astro boy. Damned cute!

Finding solution.

weekly schedule. Urgh.

Today is our 1 year & 7 month anniversary. Its the year & month me & boyfriend been together / dating. I may prefer to count down every month, Cos you will realise each of the things that we do, have move on very fast & things has changed alot. & the more its move faster, the more you feel you reeally neeed to treasure this relationship :)

But this few days, it really sucky as i've sleepless night. Whereas I cant sleep at night, tend to cry easily. I dont know what syndrome im suffering from. :( I MISS BOYFIE ALOT. I took boyfie towel, sooo when im miss him, i smell his towel. his towel got this weird smell that make me melts, & sometime even want to cry. Cos i still miss him alot, eventho 5 days field camp over already, Belum habis lepas kan rindu. For serious. Haiz. Maybe on the 17th November, right after our anniversary Baby going to have 5 days MC cause of dental thingy appointment, then back to camp on sunday & boooking out on the wed night again. WOAH!! can fetch me from school already. weeeeee! Everytime we meet on the weekends very tiring you know. Cause we had lil' time to spend together, and its less than 2 days we met. We met on the every sat afternoon at ard 2pm & we will be home by 10pm. Sunday we meet at the same time, but boyfie will be back to pasir ris at 8 plus at night. So sadddd right!

& today my neighbour at level # 08, his sweeet 19th birthday. HAHAHAHA. ZAID RAHIM. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAWWWW! Gie cepat2 kahwin lahhh. asyik mintak girlfriend dari aku je! -.- Anyone interested to date Zaid rahim? Anyone? Dont worry girls, cause he's a good guy!... if he bully you, just tell me okay. I will complain to his mum & dad. HAHAH. confirm terkencing tu anak. LOL.

Schoooool have been so slacking this month. Cant wait for holiday & next term time table is so gerek. :)))) Holiday, i want to overnight with boyfie :)) Star gazing again kays.

Friends? HMMMMMMM. I wondering why you people seem to avoiding me or even doesnt want to update anything that we had the same interest. Im here like a foool waiting for someone to asked whether if im free to help them on....... Seriously, just said it lah, if im that badd? Am i a selfish person? What did i do wrong to deserve this? Sebbbbie call me quick, i need someone to talk with. :'(

Only my girlfie knows who am i actually. What type of person am i is. thats why we getting along closer till now. for like 7 years. We even did have argument, we break our friendship for 5 month, but we are back okay. But you people, it seeeem you guys are selfish. dont you know that you have to went thru different kinds of people in this world, you wont ever get a perfect friends in this world, some may backstabbed you, some may gossip behind your back. You wont know, cos human have split personality. So chooose your friends wisely, if you think im not good enough as a friend for you, than its okay, i wont brag about it anymore, & i wont contact you guys anymore. But i will still continue what i wish to do in future with people surround me who believe & trust me. 'Once its over dont ever you regret it.'

SERIOUSLY, DILAH HAVE GIVEN UP ON THIS PEOPLE. SHE'S DISAPPOINTED RIGHT NOW & KINDA FED UP. SHE THINKS, M.I.A FROM YOU GUYS SHOULD BE THE BEST WAY. SO GOOD BYE TO THIS PEOPLE WHO LISTED IN MY MIND RIGHT NOW. TAKE CARE & GOOD LUCK .;)

This Picture was taken on the 16 June 09, at Pasir ris. & We've to went thru of 2 weeks surviving without meeting,  hugging & kissing each other. Its was a painful experience to me, 3 days straight at night i've been crying, never in my  life im far away from boyfriend. Things went fine after that 2 weeks confiment is over & now, like what?!? going thru  that again. Haishh. Now its only 5 days. Yes, 5DAYS?! but we cant make any phone call to each other. Cause  sayang is having field camp for 5 days in the jungle.I dont have proper sleep yesterday night, wonder is it will the  same again tonight? I really worried for him, the day before he shed some tears. Worried-ness is all in his mind.  Most priority in his mind is his mummy, he love his mum so much that, he cant bear to be far away from her. :(

5 days enduring without calling & time for now is almost 9pm. Wondering what's he doing right now? what is he  having for his dinner, How he gonna survive in the jungle? Haissh. OMG?! im like so over - worried. Help me to stop  all this worrying. This is for his own good sia, Haishhh.

Can you bear to be away from you boyfriend? Can you bear not to hear his voice for 5 days? Not knowing what's his  up to now. You dont know whether he can adapt sleeping in the jungle. Have you went thru like how i went thru now?  Some people may say "Chill ar beb, 5 days will over sooon." Yes! it will over sooon, but missing my own boyfriend so  badly that i not really been myself this few coming days. for sure. I think i will stop typing abt this, people gonna get  so tired to read.

PEOPLE who's online onsugar now, go watch Project Hope. :) It really touched my heart when i watched the show.  :'(

Last 26th September 2009, marked the day 1 year & 6 months eversince we date each other.                                                     Our day was spend just watching movie 'Inglorious Basterds' at The Cathay. Cause' we met abit late.

I dont understand the whole movie was about, till boyfie told me each of the plot after he read at wikipedia. Semangat sia my boyfie. :DDD  The movie is about Nazi & Jews. Aiya, i dont really studies so much about Nazi & all the jewis. But Brad Pitt look macho in the movie. :D

The movie was like 2 hours plus. -.- & we had our dinner at LJS near the cathay.

After that we walk around plaza singapura, we disturb those fishes in the tank. :DD & i've requested to kept a terrapin, but boyfie doesnt allow it. HAIZZZ!  & we're off home sweet home. :(

Time really moving very fast when im with you, how i wish i could stop the time from moving.

Moving on~ I've just check my examination result for the first semester. Im so freakkking HAPPPPY :D

I've got grade B for multimedia essential, while grade C for computer maintainance & operating system. & my gpa I've got 2.5 for Higher Nitec lahhhh. :DDDD

Im a kind of person who's happy even tho i've got low grades than anyone, cause i knew that i've tried my best, and i know i can do better in future. Syukur Alhamdullilah that i passed my examination :)

Last 2 days of weekends, me & boyfie spend our times just watching movies. we watched Phobia 2 & Cloudy                                                                           with a chance of meatball. :DD was hoping to watched 3D version, but its not at the cathay cwp. :(

Last week & this week, was totally tiring day. Out raya-ing with ex-sec school classmates & yesterday, out rayaing with the clan DUSHH matess. :D

As usual, clan DUSHH w/o DSLR will be a bored-to-death day outing. HAHAHAHA. 3 of us brought DSLR along. :) Thoughts wanna do some photoshoot with the ladies, but no interesting places, as usual the star of the day will be lattif! hahaha. & i still cant forget those shocking moments in the train with latiff. hahahaha. TAKE CARE SIOL.

3 DSLR equal to 1 DSLR WITH 300 ++ PHOTOS. GOD DAMMIT. hahahahs. Im like so supppppper laaaaaaaaazy to transfer its.

OH YA! Jannnnnnny concidence mets with TAY PING HUI & RANDALL TAN! URGH!?!! I've shouldnt gone to work siaaaa! :'(

10TH OCTOBER 2009 (Big Surprise Day)

This saturday, My parents is coming over to Boyfie place to meet with his parents for the very first time?!?! Y.E.S, its for the very first time. :s OMG?! Im feeling so nervous & scared. I dont know what its turn out to be?! hopefully its turn out good. & The day finally my miserable is over. Let them know, no more secrets already, been keeping it as a secret for like what since sec 2.?! Pray for me people, hope it turn out something goooood to hear! :(

To my bbygirl here, HAHAHA.(Suke, letak gambar besar-besar gini. LOL) DO YOUR BEST FOR YOUR O'S LEVEL kays, WE'D MUCH FUN THRU OUT THIS WEEK, SO GET BACK TO YOUR 'MUGGING' TIME :DDDDD